Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Ria's LiveJournal:

Sunday, September 14th, 2003
11:30 am	Hrm... So. I'm okay. Not perfect, but not bad. Work helps. That sounds silly, but I adore work. I love the people, what I get to do, everything. Um....yup. Just wanted to update folks. Current Mood: okay (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 9th, 2003
6:10 pm	The Truth... The truth is that I am weak. Weak weak weak. Not strong at all, perhaps I never have been. I would give the world to go back in time two days. To fix everything. But I can't, and my choices are ripping my soul apart. Watson, if you read this, know that I love all you guys, and I'll be in touch when I can. Don't know when I'll see you, any of you, but I still have a phone... Good god, is this my life? Is this what I've made of the life I was given? Is this my mess? Please no, no. Current Mood: heartbroken (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
6:00 pm	Me... You are a phoenix. What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox always... Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 25th, 2003
8:29 pm	Livin' on my own for a bit... Very odd. All of it, this weekend, all of it.... Beca call me. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: The kitty's I'm watching talkin. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
3:22 pm	Creationists Circle I Limbo Militant Vegans, PETA Members Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow Scientologists Circle IV Rolling Weights The New York Yankees Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled River Styx Qusay Hussein Circle VI Buried for Eternity River Phlegyas Uday Hussein Circle VII Burning Sands Saddam Hussein Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement Osama bin Laden Circle IX Frozen in Ice Design your own hell Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
9:16 pm	Just a buch o' quizzes Home alone. Bored, tired, etc...It's quiz time! You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal blue water, near the sea is where you belong. Where Did Your Soul Originate? brought to you by Quizilla Neutral: Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the world in a negative or positive way and you'll never judge or assume a situation- you just look at the facts. People like you are peaceful and accepting. Made by Sara What color do you see the world in? brought to you by Quizilla Peaceful? Harmony? Your Heart is Grey What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla That makes a bit of sense... congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything. You must be so proud which happy bunny are you? brought to you by Quizilla HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Okay, I'll leave some for next time.... Current Mood: bored Current Music: My boyfriend on the phone (Comment on this)
Monday, August 18th, 2003
9:17 pm	Hmmm..... So Jason and I were watching a fabulously terrible zombie film by George Romero. When it was over, we were lurching around being zombies, and when I went to bite him, I ended up smashing my teeth and upper lip into his shoulder. I gave myself a fat lip. Then when I got home (just now), it was to an empty house. Okay, my sister is out babysitting, but my parents' cell phones are turned off, they didn't leave a note, or take a car. Huh, it's a bit odd and it scares me a bit. Now, in spite of those two previous stories, I am an adult. Well, kinda, but I did start work today. It went well and was actually pretty fun. But. It was a little strange since all the other people were still in High School and I have a degree from one of the best Communication schools in the country. Ah life! Oh...wait. I think my parents are home, they just went to sleep super early. No, I did not check their room before deciding they were out and yes, i would make a crappy detective, thanks for noticing. (Says I to no one.) On a different subject...I haven't been sleeping. I thought I was over this, but apparently not. I hardly sleep one night, but come the next night, I'm not tired. I give up at around 2, and when I lie down to try to sleep, I toss and turn for hours. If I sleep at all before I have to get up at 7, I count myself lucky. It's starting to affect me mentally, which is no good...This writing feels more screaming into silence than ever before and I think I'm starting to hallucinate... Current Mood: dorky Current Music: utter quiet (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2003
10:41 pm	This stupid LJ.... Is turning me into a bizzarro hermit thing. Anyway, my sister hurt my feelings this weekend. (This is what I mean about the hermit thing, it's easier to write it here than tell her. I am strange.) She stayed a day longer than I thought she was, and she didn't even mention it. I mean, I wasn't expecting a "hey I'm still here, come over," 'cause that'd be a lie, and I know she's not here to see me, but when I'm in her neighborhood, I try a bit, and even a little update that one expects from a friend when they are around would have been nice, or even something so I'd know what to say to my parents if they asked. I understand that I'm like, seventy billionth priority, but still. And now...she will probably be mad, but that wasn't the object here. I just have a hard time speaking my feelings sometimes and this is so much colder, and hence, easier. "In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." - Martin Luther King Jr. Oh! And I got a job! Current Mood: dirty Current Music: silence (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 14th, 2003
5:39 pm	Half-assed yay I went and probably got a job today. While it isn't neccessarily quite a four-year degree job, it's something I'd like and so I'm excited about that. Also, Bane is coming down next weekend, and possibly Beca too, and we'd go to Ren Fest and the fam might all be together and armageddon would start...So all that's good. What is bad, is that Beca was supposed to come down this weekend, and I was very excited. But now with this huge power outage, I don't know if she'll be able to. At least not when she was going to. I feel bad for me, but also her a lot. So that is bad. Okay, just wanted to do a quick update to let "everyone" (all 4 of you) know that it ain't all bad, and I'll be fine. Really. No lies. Congratulations! You're a screaming orgasm!! What Drink Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Huh. How's that for a bit of random? Current Mood: quixotic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:43 pm	And it seems that this year...I have nothing to say. Current Mood: cold (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
11:22 pm	How do you feel today? (Part 3) Okay, I’m gonna end this real quick, before my stupid computer shuts down again. When I took Tae Kwon Do, sometimes my master would ask us at the end of the night, “How do you feel today?” And we would have to jump as high as we could and answer, “I feel great today!” He didn’t always ask, and it always seemed like he would ask when I had been having a terrible night (or day). I’d always answer right though. So, how do I feel today? I feel great today. Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:14 pm	How do you feel today? (Part 2) My computer has been shutting down a lot recently. It just did before I got to finish my last post. Perhaps that's good though, even though I have no idea what I was about to say, it calmed me down. A bit.Shit again. Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
11:04 pm	How do you feel today? Sick sick sick. I'm fine (lies) lonely scared sad bored. Why? Crazy sometimes. I hate this. Screaming whywhywhywhywhy. They say I have "a nervous disorder." I thought I was over it. These are the days we shouldn't have a live journal, but it's blood on the page, and oh so nice. I should sleep, but "it's far to late to try to sleep now, seems I'm never tired anymore," NMA. More lies. I'm always tired and it's hardly late at all, but it feels infinite. I miss my penpals. I miss before. I've been remembering lately, things I thoughts were half-cocked dreams are were shit. have to go... Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Monday, August 11th, 2003
2:19 pm	Yuck I wanted to update this, but I feel like crap, (dizzy, sick to my stomach and kinda numb) so I'll try again later. Current Mood: sick (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 9th, 2003
10:34 pm	Oh... And I really miss Boston. And Dublin. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
10:22 pm	Eck So. I really need a job. REALLY really. I get a bit sick thinking about it sometimes. Plus, it's not like I'm not doing anything. I send out resume's everyday, but nothing. It makes me want to hate people like my boyfriends sister, who keeps going on interviews in the field I majored in, (nb, I do NOT hate her, I am happy for her, but it still makes me feel shitty). I guess the main problem is that I suck. No, really, I just don't know what I want to do, I just know I want to get out of the dc area. But if I leave, Jason, my boyfriend, said that's it. I know we've been apart for the past 4 years, and I hated every minute of it, but I just want to pack everything and go. Somewhere, anywhere. I know that's not realistic though, but who really needs reality? I'm doing just fine without. Anyway, the point is simply that I need money, have little, need a job, have no prospects. Wait, that wasn't the point. I mean, it kinda was, but not the point of the Jason mention. That point was simply that I love him and so I'm NOT leaving dc right now. Suck. Ah well, thinking about it so much gives me a headache. Night. Current Mood: discontent (Comment on this)
Friday, August 8th, 2003
9:12 pm	It feels like burning. Out of NYC. Gone from Beca and Watson. It was the first time in ages we had all been together without weirdness. Missing them and Dublin like crazy. See subject line... Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 7th, 2003
10:12 pm	So... I'm in NYC with Beca right now, and...we have a band. Kinda. It's called FFOC. Which stands for "Face Full Of Chiggers." I just can't wait for this to become a reality. I mean, we already have three songs ("Spanish Moss Lament," "ChiggerHappy," & "Long Hot Summer") and at least three band members. Yay! The only problem is, that between the three of us, we have no talent. But hey, it's worked for other bands...many, many other bands. Anyway, job update. Still nothing. Fab, life after college is going great... Also, this is so a blue footed boobie! Watson and Beca never believed me. Ha! Angel of Protection. What kind of Angel are you? brought to you by Quizilla Hmm. Interesting. Tired, and been drinkin. Sleep time. Current Mood: drunk (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 4th, 2003
1:02 pm	Jobs and melencholia So. I have just graduated from college. A highly respected university in fact and...I have no job. I sleep most of the day away because I have nothing better to do. I awoke ravenous and ate cereal, then ten minutes later couscous. I didn't really want either. But that's what we do. We eat. Anyway, was bored, just wanted to update this. It's funny, but when I first signed up for this account, I thought I would never post. But it's a bit comforting really. Even if no one ever reads it. You still know that it's there. It's like screaming at the world, "I exist!" There is proof. The world over, there is proof that I am here. Still. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: My sister playing the piano (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 31st, 2003
10:17 pm	First ever post So. Here is me losing my live journal virginity. Didn't hurt as much as I expected, or wanted it to. (I know this current background is pissy, but I'll work on it when my head doesn't hurt.) The end. Of this post. Current Mood: hopeful (2 Comments |Comment on this)